Long Time ...

So, I know I've been gone a while, but I have been dealing with some traumas in my life. No nothing life shattering or life threatening, but emotional trauma's just the same which has led me into a depressive funk. I am now just starting to come out of the two week depressive period. One of the added things about this depression is my ability to sleep has been severely compromised. I have dealt with PTSD & depression for over 10 years now in one form or another, with brief periods of respite in between events. One of the major indicators of stress and depression for me is my inability to sleep at night even with prescribed meds (i.e., ambien). As a result, I had developed several tools in order to combat this when I am at my worst & it took my several years to perfect it. It's a combination of meditation, self guided imagery, self hypnosis or even reading homework to fall asleep. So far it's not working this time around, so I'm going for the writing it down to help get it out and off my mind tool.

Yet even now, the words are failing me. I began this post in order to write down my problems / struggles and now there's just nothing, silence. What the heck? Maybe I'm not yet ready to discuss it as of yet, or maybe I really don't know where the problems are stemming from. Back to the drawing board with self reflection. Yeesh.

Well peace all and hope you are doing well. I'm still here just struggling a bit, but I will get through it, as always.