I'm Having a Bad Month

So, I have a history of major depression and some past traumatic experinces which brought it on.  Now, I'm overly protective of my mental health.  I as so excited to go back to law school, but now it's just another goal I've set for myself and I'm not enjoying it as much.  I have so much outside stress and pressure that I'm starting to crack.  Plus, I'm finding myself in a bit of depression.  It's becoming harder and harder to focus or motivate myself to stay on top of my work.  I think having both my father and brother leave the country has been a huge adjustment for me.  My biggest support system is not as easily accessible as it used to be.

The one really nice thing about living with my dad for the 8 months when I first moved to NY was having another hand to help cook and clean and handle all of the house responsibilities.  Having a house to myself is quite a bit of work alone.  Anyway, I went back to counseling and decided to go back on anti-depressants.  I would rather error on the side of caution with my mental stability than not.  Especially with both the holidays and exams coming up I might to make sure I'm in the best possible position for success.

God, I hate the idea of going back on the meds. but I'm not willing to take the chance that I can't pull through or deal with everything in time to be ready for exams.  C'est la vie.